This post goes out to you..
A most precious person i've hurt beyond measurable pain..
A person who do most likely won't be able to read this..
I WAS WRONG.
I was selfish and blinded at that time, looking at the prize in front of me instead of saving something that was more worthwhile. What could have been a beautiful friendship desintegrated into nothing because of my actions. I betrayed you, spit on the wound i caused and drove you to the ground without considering what you were going through. Had I been in your stead, I might have done the unspeakable to hurt you back.
YOU WERE RIGHT.
There was nothing wrong with the way you acted. I pretended to be callous, to be insensitive to your hate, but I knew that you were right all along; the spite you had for me was well deserved. You did nothing wrong, and you were merely trying to get back on your feet.
I AM SORRY.
I've said this a million times before, and i meant it every single time. I've no excuse for hurting you, no reason to deny whatever i did, because I know I was wrong, and that's how it is. Every time I remember you, I see myself as less of a person, knowing I did what I did. I was a jerk, to say the least, and I deserve more than the anger you threw at me.
You will never be able to read this, and there's no way you will ever forgive me for what I did. But I hope, wherever you are, you meet someone who makes my wrongs right, and restores you and gets your beautiful soul back together to how it was. You are beautiful, much more than you know. We were never meant to be, but that much, I am sure of.
I can never take back anything that I did, but just so you'd know, if it's any consolation at all. I will carry regret in my heart all my life, for the pain that I've caused you.
