Stingy

 I just realized something about myself today. 

I have very good control over things I need to spend on. I can be very cheap, but I can also put in a lot of money once I've decided on something. Otherwise, I really have good control and I usually hesitate and do double takes, go through countless days of thinking, even ending up letting go of my interest on something once I figure out I don't really need it. Sounds good, right? This should save me a lot of money.

Unfortunately, there's a darker side to this.

I'm a big glutton when it comes to things that are free. It feels uncomfortable knowing that resources are being wasted, and that's why I usually end up maximizing things that would otherwise be put aside. It's fairly normal for me to be compelled to finish food even if I'm already full, or eat food that others refuse to.

There. I'm glad I'm getting this out and I'm finding out more about myself. 

I'm not sure what to do next to unlearn that second tendency. Ugh.